Don’t say you ended up with nothing man. You still have something with one of them; someone who has nothing but respect for you. Someone who is trying to make right what was done wrong in the last two weeks. I cant sit here and say how wonderful and how great you are because words on a screen are meaningless and often misinterpreted. The mistakes and lessons from the past have been accounted for and the realization of how my actions and attitudes contributed to our split. Not a lot that can be done about it now, but if I could go back and change a few reactions and perceptions of things, I wouldnt hesitate. You taught me a lot about life, love, relationships, companionship, and most of all myself. I am thankful that after all this time, I can still call you a “friend”. Thank you. Reply
My chase on hope I was never hanging onto to hope that you would think as I do shaun, your way of thinking and outlook on common topics has always had me intrigued…I hung onto hope that you would share, with me, the deeper parts of Life & our relationship, as I did with you… A Bad guy you are not…a compatiable guy you can be, when you allow it. Yes you do fit what most guys would say to be the perfect guy to be in a relationship with, but I found & felt the potential of your heart…and that my love is what is so great about you…One day when you are willing and able to open up and SHARE that with somebody..they are going to be ONE Lucky person. Oh yeah and I do not see our ending as a lost on either end…I look at it as I gained more experience..for the next chapters in my life… Reply
Re: My chase on hope I trust that I misread part of that. Certainly there are better things about me than your love. Cause your love for me is external to me. Right? ;p But thanks for the kind words. I do still think of it all as a loss though. Not necessarily wasted time, but I dunno. These relationships have taken a lot out of me and I dont think I have much left to give anymore. Just not sure I have it in me to try again with anyone. Reply
Re: My chase on hope hey guess I could have typed it like it was supposed to be… and that, my love, is what is so great about you… See I was calling YOU “My Love” LOL @ taking a lot out of you…I dont think there was much in you to give when we started anyhow…lol.. Reply
Re: My chase on hope Heh. Maybe. Maybe not. Once upon a time there was much to give. And you got a lot of it. ;p Reply
Because all i’ve done is share myself… who I am.. with people and in the end I pay for it. They must just fall in love with the wrong guy. Instead of the real one, they’re in love with the idea of what I might be. I mean, what else could it be? If you’re anything like you used to be, you do all the right things for someone, to the point of them seeing what you do, instead of who you are. You’re enough of an empath to know what people want, and a pleaser enough to follow through, a lot of the time without even consciously thinking about either one. When I’ve had issues with trust, rather with people trusting me, I’ve found that it really has nothing to do with me. They don’t trust me from the get-go, and there is nothing I can do to change that. Whether it be because of (on their part) fear, insecurity or whatever. I think you just need a bit of a change up. Something to inspire that ‘new’ feeling again, whether it be a new guy, a new game, a new hobby, a new restaurant. Take up cooking. Redecorate the house. Get a new pet. Try something. With your raise, you have a couple more options (not as limited by money). Rediscover an old passion. Seek out more spirituality. Start throwing cards again. You’ll find something. Or it will find you. Reply